As a child.

I’ve grown-up seeing my father abusing my mother. Still, I’d respected them for being my parents. Though, I hate my dad for treating my mom like that. And I hate my mom for allowing it to happen.

As a teenager.

I met a boy who taught me how it is to be loved. That love is different to every individual. I learned to forgive what my parents been through. The boy met another girl. And he chose her over me. I hate him for that.

As an adult.

I’ve been happily married for 5 years. Had a great time with kids on my side. After two years, the marriage was over. I hate myself for that.



The case of Mr & Mrs

“Marriage is not a problem. Getting married for the wrong reason is.”

There are two sides in every story…

Why focus on the bad side, when you can have the good side to live by?

“There is no such thing as a “broken family.” Family is family, and is not determined by marriage certificates, divorce papers, and adoption documents. Families are made in the heart. The only time family becomes null is when those ties in the heart are cut. If you cut those ties, those people are not your family. If you make those ties, those people are your family. And if you hate those ties, those people will still be your family because whatever you hate will always be with you.”
― C. JoyBell C.

“DIVORCE isn’t such a tragedy. A TRAGEDY is staying in an unhappy marriage, teaching your children the wrong things about LOVE. Nobody ever died in divorce.”                           

-Jennifer Weiner

People do not get married planning to divorce. Divorce is the result of a lack of preparation for marriage and the failure to learn the skills of working together as teammates in an intimate relationship.     

Gary Chapman

” Divorce is a fire exit. When a house is burning, it doesn’t matter who set the fire. If there is no fire exit, everyone in the house will be burned! “

Mehmet Murat ildan

The ads commercial was quite liberating in a country where divorce is illegal.
In a place, where you always blame for the misbehavior of a child just
because his/her parents were separated or divorce.

I am not an expert in the legality of marriage or something like that. My religions point of view has nothing to do with the way I see and observed married couples.

Is divorce really has something to do with the way you treat people?

It’s just a LABEL. It’s just a STATUS.


"My brother told me a joke
I laughed to tears. 
He told me the same joke again 
and I laughed but not as hard. 
He kept repeating the joke 
and I stopped laughing. 
He said 'If you can’t laugh at the same joke over and over again, 
why do keep crying over people who hurt you over and over again?"

— Unknown


Loving you

It’s the season of love

I want to feel it

With you by my side

I think I have so much to give

But you’re nowhere to be found

I felt so much

That I started to feel nothing

Now, I’m not sure

Am I better or just bitter?




You and I

Have it ever cross your mind
The moment you lay in bed
That somehow when you fall asleep
You'll wish it will be your last?

"Yes", I said.

Have it ever cross your mind
The moment I lay in bed
That somehow when I fall asleep
I'll wish it will be my last?

"No", God said.



The ONE that got away

I am the ONE who owns your mind

I am the ONE who owns your heart

I am the ONE who owns your soul

The ONE who completes and brighten up your day

The ONE who supports and give you courage

The ONE who understands you more than yourself

The ONE who loved you first.

But lately, things have changed.

The sweetness of your words turn to sour

The promises that kept had broken

The calls have been rejected

Your mundane life is there to keep you company now.

Whatever it is, please tell me that I change you somehow

Let me know that you will never forget me

That somehow, somewhere or sometime you'll wish we haven't parted our ways.

It's just me. 

I'm the ONE that got away.

- Jesus -
Something tells me I'm going to love you forever.

Is this your freedom?

A facebook post 
About a fake happiness
A hundred "Likes"
Is that your freedom?

A grand wedding
A signed contract
With a strange roommate
Is that your freedom?

A perfect portrait
A flawless smile
With a broken heart
Is that your freedom?

A gentleman in suit
A lady in black
A perfect couple
That was not meant-to-be
Is that their freedom?

Who knows?...

“Liberation, I guess, is everybody getting what they think they want, without knowing the whole truth. Or in other words, liberation finally amounts to being free from things we don’t like in order to be enslaved by things we approve of.”

― Robert Fulghum

A quotes story

It started in “The little Prince”.

You have made your intentions clear.

“If some one loves a flower, of which just one single blossom grows in all the millions and millions of stars, it is enough to make him happy just to look at the stars. He can say to himself: ‘Somewhere, my flower is there…’ Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

At first, I hesitated.

Afraid to fall again. But you insisted with this…


It melted my heart. You won the game.

Like the waves to the ocean, awaking my soul.

“Her happiness floated like waves of ocean along the coast of her life. She found lyrics of her life in his arms but she never sung her song.” 
― Santosh Kalwa

Then, I gave in.

Everything falls in their right places.

You’re the ONE I never thought existed.



A love I never knew would come.


love songs


A promise that will never end.

“I love you,
in ways
you’ve never been
for reasons you’ve never been
for longer than you think you
and with more
than you will ever know existed
me.”― Tyler Knott Gregson


For many years, I thought OURS will be different.

Then the green-eyed monster appeared and ruined what we had.



I did everything I had to do, but it’s no use holding on.

“She’s standing on the line between giving up and seeing how much more she can take.”


I guess, I need to let you go.


***Photo credits : Google

Untitle poem

The sun will rise

The sun will set

To bring another happy day

And though I’m gone

Just don’t forget

No matter what

My love will stay

And though one day

You met someone

And found out that you love her so

Just let me know when the time comes

I’ll wish you love

I’ll let you go.


Note:  I don’t own this poem. I can’t remember where did I read it, who wrote it and even the title of it.  I have memorized this poem way back in high school (that was 25 years ago), still loved it. Just in case, anybody knew who wrote this poem, please tell her that I would love to meet her.

Fear & Death


Fear and death. How do you differentiate it? How do you compare it?

I don’t fear death. I have seen it a lot when I was in the convent. About 3 or 4 times a year, the community celebrated a sister’s going home to the Father. A celebration, because death is a part of human life.

It’s the fear that I feared. It’s more than death to me, because fear has my permission to take me to be feared. I allow fear to happen.

While death can come once, fear happens repeatedly.

Fear will always be there just around the corner, waiting to get someone’s attention. While death will be waiting to take his turn.

I fear of losing a friend, a parent, a family members.                                        I fear of losing my career.                                                                                           I fear of losing myself while living.

For some, death happens everyday.

Stuck in traffic.                                                                                                              Waiting in line.                                                                                                                Changing jobs.                                                                                                                  A failed relationship. It is the same. A death.

Whether or not we fear of death or death fears us, it is in our power to choose what we believe. To choose to wake up or not, to dress up or not, to eat or not, to fight or not, to love or not, to live or not.

Fear is a feeling, a suffering, a state of the mind. It is a private thing. Only me, myself and I knows it.

Death is a fact, a pain, a public thing.

It is the end of an earthly life, but the beginning of eternity.


Mothers are stubborn


When a child says, "Mom, I can't do it."
A mother will answer, "Yes you can!"

When a child says, "Mama, I failed."
A mother will reply, "A failure means you didn't try."

When a child says, "Mommy, no one wants me to here."
A mother will tell, "Just be patient. Be yourself."

When a child says, "Mother, am I ugly?"
A mother will question, "Am I ugly?" 

Mothers are really the most stubborn human beings. They never answered   their children the way their children asked of them. They never listened to our complaints, our doubts and our fears.   

And so....
When a child says, "I hate you Mom! Wish I have an option to choose a    mother!"
A mother will utter, "I LOVE YOU SO. You are the best gift God has given  me."

A mother knows her child, like our Father in Heaven knows us. Maybe    that's the reason why HE created our MOTHERS. 


mother mess


Who says life is Fair?

Unfairness quotes :

***Sometimes life seems unfair. It always  rains the hardest on the people who deserves the sun.***  -anonymous-

***If the world was just going to punish me with my choices, It shouldn’t  given me options in the first place. ***   -the secrets of flight-

***You put someone first who put you second.You study  your ass for a final only to get a C. You give 110% to someone in a relationship who only gives 40%. You are there for a best friend at 3:00 am and the next day they don’t pick up their phone. It seems like you’re giving everyone everything and they’re  just walking away with it.***

***life is indeed unfair. There are times when I’d stare at the sky at night and wonder why you are my entire universe when I’m not even a little stars in yours.***

*** It took losing you to find me. It would have took finding me to keep me from losing you. Why life so unfair?*** –

So, who says life is fair?…. I  do.

I want to.

I need to.

Because there’s a GOD who is  FAIR and JUST.

***He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.*** – Matthew 5:45-

What is loneliness ?

The guy called the girl on the phone, he broke up with her a week ago.

Girl : Hello !

Guy : Hi, what’s up?

Girl  : Oh, the usual.

Guy :  I  just arrived from Palawan for a seminar.

Girl  : hmm

Guy : Hold for a second, mom is calling me.

After a minute or so, the girl started to sing  holding the phone  (she doesn’t  know that the guy stays on the phone).

Girl : “It’s a little bit funny, this feeling inside. I’m not one of those who can easily hide. Don’t have much money but If I could I buy a big house where we both could live”.

Guy : What’s the title of the song? Is it “Annie’s song” ?

Girl : “Your song”.

Guy :  Don’t know that you like that song.

Girl :  Don’t know that I will be lonely.

Loneliness is… something you know  when it happened.